I HAVE TO STAY STRONG....

A Trip To Brisbane & Sydney

2008-12-16T17:27:00.002+08:00

Been to Australia for show last Nov and i have to admit that i really had fun... the flight is about 7 hours to brisbane then we had to wait for the domestic flight to rockhampton... Most of the people there are frenly... we stayed in the hostel... and it's a comfortable one... have my own room to myself... every morning when i wake up, there's always a family of kangaroos resting in front of my balcony.. they are wild kangaroos... how i wish i get to hug them to sleep... LOL!!!

once we get there, we had a day rest.. just unpacking and relaxing. when it comes to the next day, everything became so hectic... shows everyday till you get sick and tired of it... rehearsals from morning till night. kept going through full dress rehearsal over and over again... but once you start performing, it's like an experience of a lifetime... everyone there appreciates what we did... every shows, there'll always be a standing ovation. i felt like a superstar.. haha... felt as if am performing at the esplanade... hehe... every shows we had, there's like 300 to 400 audiences... we're like popular there... everywhere we went too, there's always aussies greeting us "Good Day Mate".. they knew all of us as we are asians and also we appeared in the aussies newspaper and also posters of us...

after doing like 10 shows, there comes our rest day which is our shopping day... believe it or not the things there are super duper cheap.. i spent like 1k of aussie dollars.. just can't stop shopping.... show from 12 till 9pm at the shops there closes late every thursday... after buying so much, i started to think on how to squeeze them all in my luggage... what i did was i trasfered most of it to my fren's luggage who didn't shop that much...

The last day comes and we had to fly off.. i've made frens with the students living in the hostel.. and also fans that came to our hostel to visit us for a drinking session... i miss them and the place so much.. wouldn't mind going there again...

Flying of to Sydney for a transit.. and it's supposedly to be a 5 hours transit but after spending an hour of searching the international airport, we're left with only 4 hours.. we rushed and took a train to the central station which cost like 20 aussie dollars just for a 20mins ride... we walked around there for like 10 mins and rushed to the sydney oprah house which am dying to see it in real... it's like OMG!! gorgeous... we stayed there for about an hour then rush back to the airport and fly home... sad to leave Australia...

Noah's School Uniform Party...

2008-09-07T16:40:00.002+08:00

30th August 2008

Venue @ Lebrador Park

Noah's birthday bash was a blast that day... looking at lots of goodlooking people wearing school unifors.. all of us looks so cute... it was difficult to find that lebrador park but my fren drove me there. pity those who don't have a car.. when i reach there.. the first person was to hug that birthday beatch... haha... then take lots and lots of photos.. but that tyara haven even upload my pics.. that asshole.. haha.. i get to take a snapshot with desmond!!! noah's bestfren who i've been wanting to meet... haha... nothing much to say actually cause most of the time we go around smoking and taking photos... i have to leave early as me and my mdc mates are having a show the next day.. so check out the pics.

Love

Ash

My Small Birthday PArty at Room 4865 Swissotel Stamford

2008-02-20T20:00:00.002+08:00

It was another great birthday celebration for me.. i had a theme like the "Oscar' where we all have to wear smart. Colours of Black, White, Silver, Grey. It was so nice to see my frens dressed up smartly. We had some food prepared.. Thanks to my sister and aunt for the help and also my $45 secret recipe chocalate walnut cake.

The event started at about 8.30 where the people starts to come. We had food, photo taking sessions and interaction with others whom i never got to see them for so long. When everyone is there, we started the cutting cake ceremony... haha... like a wedding huh... singing all different races of birthday songs which can't stop me laughing... hehe... flashes from the camera was all over the places.. ash here ash here... wow like superstar or what... hehe for that day only...

After everything, we head to tcc at clark quay where we just sat down and chill since the clubs were so crowded... they surprised me with a cake... i was so shocked and touched... shocked because it was my 4th cake... haha... thanks to abg hairi and the rest for the cake.... we head back to the hotel and start our nonsense in the room... people who were there, they will know what nonsense we did.. haha... anyways.. thanks to all my frens who attend.. i appreciate it so much and thanks for celebrating my birthday together with me...

With Love

Ash

The Fantastic 4 Crew Audition..

2008-01-22T19:26:00.000+08:00

19th January 2008 was the audition. i was shocked seeing alot of dancers auditioning. Most of them are new in the dance scene i guess cause i have never seen them before. Some familiar faces were there too... The Veteran Dancers... LOL!! Elly, Filzah, Epah, Kemboja, Ina, Faridah & Zach...

The Audition began at about 3pm at Scape Youth PArk Dance Studio. The Whole dance studio was like super full till we can't even see the choreo in front... Therefore, we have to switch front and back... Abg Iwan gacve us the first Choreography. Then we have to memorise it on our own until they call us in fives. The one selected will get to go to the next round..

I manage to go to the next round.. hehe... including the veteran dancers too except zach as she said she forgotten the routine... :( The final round was Mazlan's Choreography. The same process again and they will make their decisions from there. A total of 18 guys and 14 girls in the crew now. Am so happy that i've made it through with the veteran dancers... lol... Having myself selected will give me the chance to gain more experience and be a better dancer like them... Thanks for the opportunity...

Ash

5 Years Of Not Meeting Each Other....

2008-01-21T20:36:00.001+08:00

We had our gathering on the 5th January 08. Meeting most of the malay mates from my secondary school after not meeting for such a long time. Aizan, Akbar, Muzakir, Juita, Suraya, Suzana, Fadillah, Shera and the only chinese there is Le xian. It was nice seeing them again. i felt how much i missed them. I was shocked when i saw most of them putting on weight.. thank god i lost weight due to that army shit. LOL!! one thing i have to say is that aizan is getting super cute... haha... how i wish his not straight.. haha.. all of us gathered at Lau Pa Sat to have our dinner and then head straight to One Fullerton Starbucks for coffee.. We catched up alot of things especially during our school days... We should so this more often people... love you guys lots...

ash

2008 New Year's Day Countdown

2008-01-14T18:22:00.000+08:00

It's been a long time i didn't update my blog... hmmm so i decided to write everything here starting with my New Year's Day Celebration... I celebrated at Siloso Beach, Sentosa as i was doing a show there becoming a podium dancer... haha... they paid us quite alot so why not give it a try as we thought it was a choreographed routine but ended up knowing that we have to do freestyle... we actually have 5 slots but ended up doing 3 as we were so freaking tired.. Me, Dee, Epah & Zach arrived early as Brian and Hairi were on the way from work. The 4 of us started make up and make up and make up... hehe... and surprisingly, when hairi and brian came, they were all dressed up... guess what, they changed in the cab... hmmmm... when i was doing my make up, something kept distracting me, the capoeira guys... they were like OMG... they were super duper hot... hehe... hmmmm gatal aku....

After we are done with our stuff, we head off to our first slot which was at 9.30pm at the VIP Lounge... It was great dancing freestyle.... all your stupid steps will come out till you don't know what you are doing... haha... the final slot that i really can't take it any longer whereby we have to dance to house music... What the fuck!!! only epah was like good at it... the rest of us were like doing reggae hip hop and everything for house... it was so funny.... after the last slot, we all chilled out for awhile then head home at about 4am as we were all so tired.... it was fun though especially having the chance to dance with dee, epah and zach.. thanks guys for helping...

Lots of love...

ash

My Side Of A Story...

2007-12-20T14:42:00.000+08:00

First of all, what am gonna say are the truth and i will not even bothered with what other people wanna say, judge me or bitch around about me... To Alif, I do miss sidek and i do like him but that doesn't mean you have to send me all those text asking to ignore him. Sidek likes me and when we talked, he will say he misses me and loves me.. Therefore, your BF is actually the one who's been like loving me and don't wanna loose me. He's the one who can't stop contacting me and he's the one who don't wanna loose contact with me. i still remember me asking him to delete my number but he didn't want too.. instead i get messages from you asking me to ignore him. how can i ignore someone who's been nice to me. now everything changes. Hearing from people that he's a jerk. So alif, don't put all the blame on me.

To Sidek, you said that you loose trust on me. At first, i've already loose trust on you after hearing about osh and other stories from other people but all i did was to keep quiet. You said it's easy for me to move on but not you. it's easy for me cause am single and i know i won't get you since alif said that he's the only one who can have you and not others. it's difficult for you to move on cause you're caught in between three guys that you hurt alot. you are confused on which one to choose but no choice you have to choose your ex. you are full of lies and drama. i don't fucking care if you don't trust me as all i know is that i didn't meet anyone when dating you whereby you are together with osh.. WTF WTF... When i know that you guys got together, i have to move on fast. flirting around cause am lonely.. so it's already none of your business.. we used to date but we are never Couples before. i know you are jealous cause you did said it ones to me that if i have another guy, you will be jealous. Pls lah sidek.... nak belit belit cerite pon biar logic sikit.. i shall not continue more cause am not bothered. just wanna let my anger out typing this.

When you said you don't trust me, think twice and look yourself into the mirror and ask yourself whether you can be trusted and whether people think you faithful to one. THank god all these shit is over....

ash

A Day At SenTosa....

2007-12-15T13:19:00.000+08:00

Decided to tan at sentosa actually but due to the weather, hmmm we ended up not tanning... Went there with Noh & Mahi my camp mates... we hang out at vivo to have lunch and window shop after before entering sentosa... We took the luge, take photos here and there... and we dropped by siloso beach to meet the rest of my camp mates just to say hi to them... not all of them were there... but it was fun as we are like a 'superstar' as once we reached there everyone was like wanting to take photos with us.. haha... then we head on our own and chill for awhile... the luge was fun where we race down competiting with each other and noh was the last one... lol... when it's time for dinner we went to Marche at vivo to have dinner.. It's lucky for me that mahi and noh treated me as they made me wait for an hour for them to arrive... haha but thanks for the treat guys... then we head back home feeling tired... haha....

The Day I POP....

2007-12-15T12:46:00.000+08:00

11 December 2007, the day of my passing out parade after 3 months of BMT... There will be lots of memories that were left there... I miss my bunk, I miss my sergents yelling at us and asking us to drop 20 and i miss the cook house food even though it's sucky... The thing that i missed most will be spending the 3 months with my camp mates... pushing and giving moral support to each other whenever we execute something... i will miss them alot... During the parade, everyone were so eager and excited to march out.. both my parents and both my sistas came to experience it... it was a touchy, happy yet sad moment as i see my parents in tears putting on the jocky cap on me. most of us cried... lol... as soon as we threw our jocky cap up to the sky, that's when everything ends... we hugged each other tightly and we're so happy that we went through all the shit together. to all my camp mates, i will miss you guys alot...

love ash

Don't know what's going on with my life....

2007-12-02T12:53:00.000+08:00

Lots of things happening in my life after i wrote my last entry. My life has been like all over the places in the world.. Dating a guy whereby the guy ended up fucking around with someone else... and me liking a guy whereby the guy went back with his ex bf.. it's so confusing.. being a nice person, will always the one who give way to others and willing to get hurt.. i had enough of these hurting shit and having a short term relationship... it hurts alot... am now going through recovery bit by bit even though it's hard... who in the world loves getting hurt right?? what to do, it's part of the path of my life..

Am going to POP soon.. so excited.. at last after three months, staying in hell is going to end and face another hell.. lol.. i hope not though... but one thing, tekong will be the best memory ever... meeting new frens and being with them throughout the whole process of bmt... cheering up each other when they are stress out... it's really fun thinking about all the memories... it's gonna be sad leaving that place and the people there...

Now for me, am starting a new life for myself... waiting for the right person to come to me...

ps: the picture at the top is my best fren from camp... :)

love

ash

3 more weeks to POP!!!! yay!!!

2007-11-18T16:09:00.000+08:00

This week was like kinda slow week for me... the day goes by very slow.... with packed schedule everyday, it still seems so slow... but 3 more weeks of hell then i'll go to unit... yay!!! don't know where will i be posted but wish to go MDC.. Just pray that i'll get in... Booked out yesterday and today i have to book in... Went out to Far East to watch the dance competition held there but i was late... Glad that 5, 6, 7, 8 won... they deserve it... Mazlan was a tremendously great dancer... should learn how to move like him more.. haha.... anyway, i head to heeran to meet epah, yat and tapa.. just hang around with them at lido Mcdonald's.. taking photos, smoking, talking crap and lots... The funniest part was, the journey from Heeran to Lido was like super irritating as we stopped i guess more than 10 times as we bumped into the people that we know... it's like non stop... few steps walking to the front then we have to stop and say hi to someone... it's really irritating sometime whereby i was super hungry but am happy that i met the people that i never see for so long.... to epah, tapa and yat... i really enjoyed my day with you guys with the Gitu gitu gitu word... haha.... see you guys soon...

Love

ash

Shikin's Birthday Bash Cum M.O.S

2007-11-09T12:30:00.000+08:00

7 eleven was the day we celebrated shikin's birthday. One of my dancer from Nu'Xs.. They went to have dinner at fish and co. i couldn't make it cause i booked out late at 7pm. they surprised her with a room at gallery hotel.. small yet nice having all us gathered there to surprise her... had lots of fun eating cakes, laughing and taking pictures.. Then we head to M.O.S (Ministry of Sound) it was a total pack there... full full of people as usual but manage to have us the dancers to open up some moves. lol.. i was there with them till 2.30am then i head to a gay club called 'Play'. went there to meet up with some frens and a drink with them. 4.00am i haed back to gallery hotel and stayed over there... we chatted till 6am in the morning then head to sleep.. it was a fun day yet cosy... i like... haha... to adek (shikin) i enjoyed the day we had that night. Happy birthday to you and i hope all your dreams may come true.. insyaallah...

Love

ash

Graduation Day For Me.....

2007-11-09T12:10:00.000+08:00

27th October 2007.. I graduated!!!! hehe.. at last... after a hard work of hell in SHATEC, i got my diploma... it was held at shangri-la hotel ballroom and my whole family was there to watch me receive my diploma.. i am proud of myself and am sure my whole family is too.. get to meet all my classmates after a year of not meeting and also meeting all my lecturers that i miss dearly. that day was a total crazy snapshot day for me... lots of people was like ash take photo, ash take photo till i was like WTF... haha... i enjoyed myself that day with all the food that were catered for us... i will never forget the nice memories in SHAtec and the nice frens that i've met during my days in SHATEC... i love you guys....

ash

Hari Raya Aidilfitri 2007

2007-10-21T13:09:00.000+08:00

This year is the most exciting & interesting hari raya ever cause i have my family by my side & someone who made me happy. Now i know how important family is to me. having me missing them & only get to see them during th weekends is really hard.

Eve of hari raya, the day i booked-out. went home & went out to ikea to get some items for my room and orchard to get my graduation outfit. got a g2000 top and pants and a pair of pedro shoe. then head back home to have a war (cleaning the house). to that someone, thanks for accompanying me to buy my stuff. i really enjoyed the time we spent together. miss ya lots.

the first day of raye, as usual, we asked for forgiveness. cried terribly cause i miss my family so much. then, we head to my relative's houses and it ended up at 1am. he! he! raye sakan loh...

To all my muslim frens, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, mohon maaf zahir dan batin. halalkan makan dan minumku. kalau ada terkasar bahasa harap dimaafkan. enjoy your days to the fullest. unlike me, have to head back to camp again..

hugs and kisses

ash

About The Past....

2007-10-13T05:30:00.000+08:00

I just have to write this shit here even though it's none of my business now.. i've been trying to sheer up myself in camp... thank god there are my bunk mates to help me.. move on to the present and forget the past... how am i gonna forget about the past where it seemed as if i was the one to be blamed for the break up? Shouting on the phone in front of his frens asking me to change? What the FUCK was that. Who was the fucking person asking for the fucking break up. Not ME!!! and now am blamed by you??!!!! I guess you are the one who should change for god sake..

Am like slowly moving on and suddenly i heard a news from someone that his already dating someone else? wow!!! What a fast move you did. after a few das hearing that, i received a shocking message from this asshole guy saying he misses me, calling me BB, can't forget about me, wanting me back? what THE FUCK WAS THAT!!!! and i told him that i forgave him but we can't get back together as things won't be the same anymore... Lilitan Asmara??? Kental lah sei... tu pat tak perlu.... and now, i heard his together with the guy his dating.. what a desperate guy you are WAWAN!!!!!

I don't think you fuvking love me last time. am just your spare tyre. Just good luck to you then.. i know every of your relationship won't last long. you deserved jojo's tight slap and ruth's bithcy behaviour towards you.. if you were to read this, you need not reply it through updating your blog cause i just have no fucking time to even bother reading it.

*MEMANG PATUT DUDUK KAT PETAPIS...

A New Post From Me... hehe

2007-10-07T13:57:00.000+08:00

As usual, just came back from camp... so far, it's getting fun there... not the training but making new frens and laigh here and there... the training sucks like fell.. never been fasting much.. sigh... cause can't take the heat plus the training.. route march was hel.. carrying that huge field pack of mine plus the rifle.. oh gosh... you can end up in the hospital..hehe.. but i manage to endure and complete it.. yay!!! everytime whenever it's book out day, i'll get excited... of course.. but it'll be a rush oacking your stuff whereby they only give you like 15 mins to get ready and you have to freaking pack everything within that time.. it's like a fashion show where the models rush to change their costumes.. so yeah.. lol..

there's tonnes of problems happening this week with the past that just happened.. but i don't wanna talk about it as what's there about to talk when it's the past.. talking about it trough blogs will never solve the problem as the other party will shoot you back and it will never end.. just move on for me and am sure i'll be happy one day with someone... for now i wanna take things slow and not rush...

Yesterday i met Katt!!! ah!!! never been meeting her for so long... we went to break fast at magic wok with her bitches at city hall magic wok then went to rover island at raffles city which drives me crazy then head to GEYLANG SERAI!!! shopping sakan aku... hehe bought 2 runners then we hang out at the coffee shop for prata and head back home... geylang was great.. wow!!! I miss ya katt!!!

Back After Two Weeks In Camp....

2007-09-29T10:20:00.000+08:00

hey there people... sorry for no updating my blog.. cause just came back from overseas, tekong.... haha... had a wonderful time there knowing more and more people but the training sucks to the max.... missing home so bad... when my mum opened the door, she cried seeing me... i was touched that my whole family misses me alot.. hehe... and now, i don't have any hair... oh my god.. but it's not so bad... i like it somehow but my sister kept laughing and calling me spongebob.. cause i look square... haha...

thursday, went out with my frens for the first time.. hanging out with them till about 3am.. the usual people from woodlands... the normal things we do.. chit chatting and playing taiti... lol... then i head home and sleep...

friday, my frens came to my place to break fast together.. as my mum cooked my favourite food in the world.. haha after a sucky food at tekong cook house... gosh am loosing weight.. which is a good thing actually... hmmm i don't know what am i talking also.. maybe i'll write more in the future.. no mood to write cause i just broke up...sigh...

hugs people...

Fun In The Beginning But Irritating In The End.....

2007-09-02T03:37:00.001+08:00

I so called organised a "slumber party" at my place whereby 4 guys and a girl squeezed into my room. The normal crazy & idiotic people who were involved (Mas, Alip, Fathu, Haiqal) and the gorgeous me.. LOL!!!! Had lots of fun playing stupid card games like UNO, Tai Tee, Police & Thief & Hard Attack whereby the loser will either have to do a stupid task or taste this weird sour thingy that we have to squeezed as much as possible into the loser's mouth. Oh Gosh!! It's really disgusting. We all ended up sleeping at 9am in the morning and woke up like 4pm. Well..... Not all slept at 9am.. Only Me, Mas & Alip were left feeling "cosy"... LOL!!! You guys should know what i meant.. Sorry Mas.. Ones a SLUTWHORE, Always a SLUTWHORE.... lol!!! As usual, the rest went to bed early... After waking up, getting ready and eat our late lunch and i went to town after.... Then the irritating part begins from there.... Don't wanna elaborate more but am sure most of you guys knew the story that made me became SUPER IRRITATED...

A Boring Day Of My Life...

2007-08-31T03:09:00.000+08:00

Wow!!! Breaking the record for staying at home the whole day today... haha... Can't believe that i never even step out of the house... Went to take a shower at 9.30pm.. yeah i know it's late.. haha.. Shit am like so bored.. All i did was eat and sleep and eat and sleep.. damn am getting ***ter

Conferencing:

At night we conferenced on the phone... Me, Mas, Fathu, Haiqal, Alip.. First everything was going fine but half an hour later, everyone started to get freaking bored. Haha... One falling asleep and the rest started Crapping themselves till all get irritated and pissed off whereby i ended up hanging up the phone and mas got angry with me... hmmm... so sorry mas.... it was terribly bored... Sorry guys for everything... Guess it's not a good day today.. Am sure we'll be fine when we meet up later.. "Perangai Takmo Kental Buah Eh!!"

Shocking News:

Heard a story about a guy who is chasing another guy but couldn't get him as i guess the other guy already has a bf (not sure about that) but he was confronted by a guy A to stop bothering his bf... Just wondering why isn't there any other guys in the world for him instead he have to like get a guy who is already so called attached? wow!!! i pity him.. haha yeah right... afraid being confronted face to face?? hmmm.. (sarcasticly) nah!! phone is better cause he was so scared being confronted.. haiyo you are so childish... you are just too young to commit in a relationship.... enjoy life first then decide properly ok? slutwhore!!!!

Am sorry if i sounded so bitchy which i always do.. haha... anyway will write more in the future...

Kisses

Ash

First Time Blogging... LOL....

2007-08-30T00:37:00.000+08:00

This is the first time i start blogging and i don't know why it feels weird... haha... hmmm at first blogging seems so troublesome to me but it's actually interesting...

Enough of my crap... Hmmmm what shall i write... yeah! Am going to the army soon which is actually sucks whereby guys have to go through all the shit.. haha... What to do.. Bring glory to your country... WHATEVER!!!

25 August 2007 was Suntec Dance 2007 prelims. We practiced very hard but I guess it's just not our luck.. Just don't know why we didn't get into the finals... I cried after the results.. Part of it was because of not going to the finals and the other part was my final dance with Nu'Xs, my dance crew... Last dance as am going to the army and wanna rest, join dance classes when free, do shows and learn new things and move on. Who knows i'll be a latin dancer one day... haha It's so sad to leave after dancing with them for like 5 years.. We are known for our raggae moves but we didn't feel like we reach the top yet. so we move on... Nu X's, it's really a pleasure dancing with you guys. Thinking about the past that we have had, it really brings alot of memories. The ghost joke, the laughter and everything... i will miss that... Abg Hairi, Brian, Katt and Shikin... I love you guys... To faridah, thanks for joining us for Suntec.. It was fun having you in with us.